The reason for recent instability:

I have been living with my mother’s rapist for the last eleven years. I managed to get my own place for three. I was doing extremely well, until he would break in and throw things at my window. He’s pulled a knife out on me, threatening to stab me and my dog. I was only going out to check on him, because he was heavily drinking talking about ending his life. Even though he’s a disgusting human, I obviously don’t want him, or anyone to die. He’s tried walking in on me in the shower. I also was close to being a victim of rape from him several times myself. Except due to rapes I’ve been through before, I know how to protect myself from predators. But, like, do you know how exhausted I am trying to protect myself against them all the damn time? Do you? He constantly harasses me, and bullies me every single day. My dad is in jail, so he’s unable to protect me. Although he tries to call whenever he could. This is all really hard to talk about. Every time I go into the kitchen, he follows me, gets really close, and stares at my body. I get so paranoid and insecure around him, I barely can leave the house some days. Which honestly pains the hell out of me, because I love adventures. I love walking. I love nature. I love the gym, most of all. I had to give up my dog to him, because he harassed me to the point where I couldn’t take care of her. I’m really, really sad and thinking about taking my life. I’ve had a therapist for the last ten years for this, and a myriad of other reasons. If anyone reads this, please know I fucking hate our president. I don’t support isis. I don’t support Jeffrey Epstein. Anyone that harms innocent children or women will suffer an ugly, slow, horrible death. Jesus please protect our country from rapists, my mom’s boyfriend isn’t nearly as bad as the people who are in charge of the government. Fuck em’ all, .: Varrio Nuevo Estrada :. lol. That’s my dad’s gang. I support, low-key (;