Because I am

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.”

I definitely need to learn to love myself more. It’s the only way I can start loving others. When I look in the mirror, I feel so much anger. I haven’t forgiven myself yet for being a terrible daughter to my Christian parents. I know I’m going to hell. That’s why if anyone wants to hurt me, be my guest. I don’t care anymore. I’ve been taking care of myself for the past ten years, and yes, it brought me joy, some of which I don’t have anymore. I’m not perfect, but I try my best. I’ve lost everything in the world trying to make others happy. It’s the worst thing ever. When a woman who has it all loses it to her own pride. Damn, man.