Dear Kw,

I blocked every guy except workplace professionals and my dad. So, you’re the only guy who can contact me. I know you don’t like me like that, but I at least want you to know that I’m trustworthy and real. I’m keeping myself safe and clean. I haven’t gotten with any guy since the last one I told you about. He’s blocked, too. Today I almost killed myself by jumping in front of moving cars crying nonstop because he said I was unloveable along with many other horrible things. I didn’t do it because the hope of meeting you again one day. Even as friends. Made me feel hopeful that I am lovable and he was just being emotionally abusive again. I really miss you, Kw. I get sad whenever you don’t text me. I wonder if you’re doing okay. You matter so much to me. I don’t want to lose you, sweetheart. I’m sorry I’m so annoying and I text so much.